[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":889},["ShallowReactive",2],{"site-settings":3,"navigation":21,"appearance-settings":49,"blog-settings":59,"blog-posts":75},{"id":4,"title":5,"author":6,"avatar":7,"description":8,"extension":9,"footerText":10,"github":11,"icp":12,"location":15,"meta":16,"nickname":17,"siteUrl":18,"stem":19,"__hash__":20},"site\u002Fsettings\u002Fsite.yml","臭狗的奇妙冒险","罗奇奇","\u002Fimages\u002Fguy.jpg","一个臭狗的奇妙冒险，有时求知，有时思考，有时疯癫。","yml","认真生活，偶尔发癫。","https:\u002F\u002Fgithub.com\u002Fshoumenchougou",{"text":13,"href":14},"粤ICP备2023086611号","https:\u002F\u002Fbeian.miit.gov.cn\u002F","中国，深圳",{},"守门臭狗","https:\u002F\u002Fshoumenchougou.top","settings\u002Fsite","T0Me2l6TVcfvoXbjq9ctbxA_K77Qw6dNu2ZgRi-V54Y",{"id":22,"extension":9,"items":23,"meta":46,"stem":47,"__hash__":48},"navigation\u002Fsettings\u002Fnavigation.yml",[24,28,31,34,37,40,43],{"label":25,"href":26,"external":27},"首页","\u002F",false,{"label":29,"href":30,"external":27},"思绪","\u002Fthoughts",{"label":32,"href":33,"external":27},"博客","\u002Fblog",{"label":35,"href":36,"external":27},"文档","\u002Fdocs",{"label":38,"href":39,"external":27},"项目","\u002Fprojects",{"label":41,"href":42,"external":27},"工具","\u002Ftools",{"label":44,"href":45,"external":27},"关于","\u002Fabout",{},"settings\u002Fnavigation","V2ED2mJOFBz8rfRM0nH3DyKf-L-IkPSJ7EuEtwj8Mbw",{"id":50,"accentColor":51,"contentWidth":52,"density":53,"extension":9,"headingScale":54,"meta":55,"preset":56,"stem":57,"__hash__":58},"appearance\u002Fsettings\u002Fappearance.yml","","wide","comfortable","compact",{},"mist","settings\u002Fappearance","iS1ojpIdwsSzZaYMcl2ONMyLyeU8t3Xegb_uDDMoAoc",{"id":60,"title":61,"allLabel":62,"backLabel":63,"description":64,"emptyText":65,"extension":9,"eyebrow":66,"meta":67,"readMoreLabel":68,"searchPlaceholder":69,"stem":70,"tagArticleSuffix":71,"tagsLabel":72,"tagsTitle":73,"__hash__":74},"blogSettings\u002Fsettings\u002Fblog.yml","韶华易逝，往事难追","全部","← 返回博客","关于生活、旧事和偶尔冒出来的奇怪念头。","暂时还没有符合条件的文章。","NOTES & STORIES",{},"继续阅读 →","搜索标题、摘要或标签","settings\u002Fblog","篇博客","标签","寻找你想了解的东西","GyZr41XYOpverzpfXMZwoebekJnwmxmQ1M0ZE8dy0f4",[76,146,298,488,693],{"id":77,"title":78,"body":79,"description":130,"draft":27,"extension":131,"featured":132,"heroImage":133,"language":136,"meta":137,"navigation":132,"path":138,"publishDate":139,"seo":140,"stem":141,"tags":142,"updatedDate":144,"__hash__":145},"blog\u002Fblog\u002Fdoctor\u002Findex.md","关于一位乡村医生的回忆",{"type":80,"value":81,"toc":127},"minimark",[82,86,89,92,95,98,101,104,107,110],[83,84,85],"p",{},"老宋是村子里的医生，年代久远，我已难以忆起他的确切模样，只记得是一张饱经风霜的国字脸，脸头上顶着鸟窝一般的杂乱，至于其他的，倒是通通忘却了。",[83,87,88],{},"他的诊所不大，进门口便是一张年代久远，连漆都磨平了的长凳，墙边放着一张桌子，同样的漆也掉光了，承担着存放资料和问诊的重担。",[83,90,91],{},"这个诊所不像现代的医院，凡开药必以盒装为单位。它更多的是把各色的药按剂量放在一张张药纸上，待分拣完毕，几个角一折，便形成了一个个小药包。年幼时的我对这个神奇的折纸法非常好奇，但每次仔细揣摩却不得要领，每次回家把药包一拆开，无论如何捣鼓也无法将其复原。",[83,93,94],{},"儿时曾听村中人评论他，有人说他的医术尚可称为妙手，但医德欠佳。本可一回治好的病，却要拖上个两三回，恐怕是贪财之人。但长大后来到大城市就医后，我渐觉药物大抵不如村中人所想的廉价。普通的感冒，动辄几百元的医疗费用以及几百元的CT留念，总让我想起小时候十来块的药到病除。",[83,96,97],{},"村中人多为小利所困，难以理性辨别真假。究竟是顽疾需要多次治疗治根，抑或真的如村民所言，一分伤病收三回的诊疗费？如今早已无从考究。",[83,99,100],{},"然医者终难自医，某次回家，我听闻他已病入膏肓，终日于疼痛中度日。但仍时时接诊，此时他已状态欠佳，形容枯槁，竟难分医患角色。",[83,102,103],{},"后来他终归是离去了。",[83,105,106],{},"失去了乡村医生的人们，如今已习惯去几公里之外的集市医院求医。或许再过些日子，这位乡村医生再无人记得罢？但无论是为财或是悬壶济世，崇光总归是十年如一日地为方圆数十里的男女老幼们缓解了一些疾病之苦，其中自有其功德所在。",[83,108,109],{},"作为他的患者之一，每每念及他对我和家人的望闻问切，我总希望能留下一些关于他的回忆，又自觉有一些言语上的功夫，便忍不住记录下来，以作怀念。",[111,112,113,119,122,124],"blockquote",{},[83,114,115],{},[116,117,118],"strong",{},"2023年7月更新：",[83,120,121],{},"老宋长子在不惑之年因癌症去世，近日又通过母亲得知其遗孤长孙患了重度障碍性贫血症。",[111,123],{},[83,125,126],{},"族人命运多舛，听者无不唏嘘。",{"title":51,"searchDepth":128,"depth":128,"links":129},2,[],"然医者终难自医。","md",true,{"src":134,"alt":51,"color":135},"\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Fdoctor\u002Fthumbnail.jpg","#4891B2","Chinese",{},"\u002Fblog\u002Fdoctor","2023-02-06",{"title":78,"description":130},"blog\u002Fdoctor\u002Findex",[143],"往事",null,"RqFEyZ__spTqUG9kl7SJtvrdXFWMhCceQlMpvf-evmU",{"id":147,"title":148,"body":149,"description":287,"draft":27,"extension":131,"featured":27,"heroImage":288,"language":136,"meta":291,"navigation":132,"path":292,"publishDate":293,"seo":294,"stem":295,"tags":296,"updatedDate":144,"__hash__":297},"blog\u002Fblog\u002Fgrandmother\u002Findex.md","一碗价值一辈子的粥的故事",{"type":80,"value":150,"toc":282},[151,154,157,160,163,167,170,173,176,179,182,185,188,191,194,197,200,203,206,209,212,215,218,221,224,227,230,233,236,239,242,245,248,251,254,257],[83,152,153],{},"\"那年我大概十五六岁。我是一九四几年出生的，具体时间记不太清了\"",[83,155,156],{},"老婆婆开口说道。",[83,158,159],{},"我时常来探望这位婆婆，她独居在这个无人的村庄。略显破旧的瓦片房，与高楼林立的新时代显得格格不入。屋里没几样物件，却打扫得井井有条。门外一大片春意盎然的菜园，仿佛在宣告着它的主人身体多么硬朗。",[83,161,162],{},"据我所知，她住在城市的儿女们，一直想把她接到城里去。但不知为何，她近乎执拗地要留在这个荒凉的村子里。今天我在与她闲聊时谈及这个问题，她却没有回答，而是说起了往事。",[164,165,166],"h2",{"id":166},"序章",[83,168,169],{},"\"那时候闹饥荒，饿死了很多人，家里实在掀不开锅，只好让我们几姐妹自己出去找活路。我顺着大路，挨家挨户地讨吃的，可是大家都是一样的状况，哪有人愿意管我。",[83,171,172],{},"后来，我走到了这条村子，他站在门口看着我，就是我们现在坐的这个门口。我真的太饿了，没有力气再走下去，于是我站在门外跟他对视。\"",[83,174,175],{},"\"他家很富有，有余粮分给你吗？\"我对这个年代久远的故事很感兴趣。",[83,177,178],{},"\"他家也没好到哪里去，每天都在到处弄吃的。\"她顿了一下，好像在回忆些什么，然后接着说：\"但是他没有像其他人一样赶我走，他让我等一下，然后回到屋子里边。我在外面等了好久，他终于端了一碗粥出来。那可真是救命的粥呀，又香又甜，到现在我都忘不了那个味道。\"",[83,180,181],{},"\"然后呢？一碗粥就把你骗了呀？\"，我打趣道。",[83,183,184],{},"她的老脸露出了难得的羞涩笑容：\"没办法呀，那个四处缺粮的年代，也就他愿意分吃的给我，不跟他跟谁呀。\"",[83,186,187],{},"我不禁感慨：\"患难见真情，这种黑暗岁月的爱情真是宝贵啊。\"",[83,189,190],{},"但她并不认可我的话，摇了摇头：\"没什么爱情不爱情的，那个四处断粮的年代，可没有心思考虑这些。活着才是最重要的事。\"",[164,192,193],{"id":193},"风起",[83,195,196],{},"\"后来搞起了生产队，但是大家都不愿意多干活。做多做少都是吃一样的，那么拼命为了啥嘛。但我们不一样，我跟他做什么都是一把好手，又快又好，所有生产队都抢着要我们。\"她脸上露出自豪的神色。",[83,198,199],{},"我点了点头：\"这个我知道，大锅饭嘛。\"",[83,201,202],{},"\"后来开始包土地了，我们家里包了好几亩地，开始有些余粮和积蓄。也有了几个孩子，可惜没一个能成才的。最有希望的大儿子读完高中，复读好几次都没考上大学，就送他去木匠那里学手艺去了。几个孩子虽然没能大富大贵，磕磕碰碰也总算是安稳成人，日子是越过越好喽。\"",[83,204,205],{},"\"可真好呀。\"我也跟着开心起来了。",[83,207,208],{},"\"可能是那些年落下的老毛病，他总是胃痛，又不舍得花钱去看医生，就去药店买何济公吃。那个药很便宜，一包两分钱，两包三分，每次胃痛他就连吃好几包。说来也怪，那东西像神仙药一样，吃完就不痛了\"",[83,210,211],{},"我不忍心告诉她，何济公止痛退热散只是止痛药，吃完会麻痹痛觉。实际上这药对胃病一点帮助都没有，大剂量服用还会导致胃溃疡和胃出血。",[83,213,214],{},"但接下来的话便让我明白，她并非毫不知情：\"其实我也晓得，那东西肯定不是什么灵丹妙药，仙丹尚有几分毒呢。但他已经吃了几十年了，有什么办法能停掉呢？他的胃溃疡和胃出血是越来越严重了，那时候孩子都长大成家了，就带他去省里的医院检查。那些大医生都说太严重了，没办法救喽，只能稍微抑制一下。\"",[83,216,217],{},"我没有开口，因为预感故事即将走向尾声。",[164,219,220],{"id":220},"谢幕",[83,222,223],{},"\"那天晚上，我们收完稻谷，像往常一样煮了一锅糖粥，喝完就去睡了。关了灯我们还在说水稻的事情。天色发白的时候，我像以前一样起夜，却没有吵醒他。我仔细去听，他好像已经没有呼吸声了。才六十多岁，真是没有享福的命。\"",[83,225,226],{},"她用近乎陌生人的平静语气，描述着老伴在某个夜晚的突然离去。",[83,228,229],{},"我默然不语，如此沉重的话题我不知该如何接话。",[83,231,232],{},"\"我就知道会是这样，谁叫他把何济公当饭吃\"她的神情有几分责怪的意味，浑浊的眼神却满是藏不住的思念。",[83,234,235],{},"\"他走了那么久，我也吃够了，可惜我这身子骨太硬了。现在儿孙都出息了，我是没什么可惦记的了，就在这里陪他吧。\"",[83,237,238],{},"故事到这里戛然而止，老媪不再言语，出神地望着门外那片油绿的菜园。",[83,240,241],{},"村庄是静谧的，只有墙上的老挂钟嘀嗒嘀嗒地响，宣告着时间的流逝。",[83,243,244],{},"我感到极大的震撼，似乎有万千感慨，却又不知从何说起。我不忍惊扰她，任由她沉浸在回忆的世界中。",[83,246,247],{},"天色渐晚了。",[83,249,250],{},"\"那我先回去了，奶奶。\"我起身告别，给她一个大大的拥抱，并向墙上的黑白照片鞠了一躬。",[83,252,253],{},"我想，这大概是我听过的最美的爱情故事。它从未提及爱情二字，而故事的开始，不过是一碗粥。一碗值得用一生时光去守护的粥。",[255,256],"hr",{},[111,258,259,272],{},[83,260,261,264,265],{},[116,262,263],{},"首发于微信公众号"," ",[266,267,271],"a",{"href":268,"rel":269},"https:\u002F\u002Fmp.weixin.qq.com\u002Fs\u002Fy8fqZzLnpilpDuNmsbMpRw",[270],"nofollow","\"臭狗的奇妙日记\"",[83,273,274,264,277],{},[116,275,276],{},"插图：",[266,278,281],{"href":279,"rel":280},"https:\u002F\u002Funsplash.com\u002F@evertonvila",[270],"Unsplash@evertonvila",{"title":51,"searchDepth":128,"depth":128,"links":283},[284,285,286],{"id":166,"depth":128,"text":166},{"id":193,"depth":128,"text":193},{"id":220,"depth":128,"text":220},"\"那年我大概十五六岁。我是一九四几年出生的，具体时间记不太清了\"老婆婆开口说道。我时常来探望这位婆婆，她独居在这个无人的村庄。",{"src":289,"color":290},"\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Fgrandmother\u002Fgm.jpg","#8B7355",{},"\u002Fblog\u002Fgrandmother","2020-05-27",{"title":148,"description":287},"blog\u002Fgrandmother\u002Findex",[143],"icETemAewIeR275z5decZqpLP2xZ2Kk92TklYUI_4wY",{"id":299,"title":300,"body":301,"description":478,"draft":27,"extension":131,"featured":27,"heroImage":479,"language":136,"meta":480,"navigation":132,"path":481,"publishDate":482,"seo":483,"stem":484,"tags":485,"updatedDate":144,"__hash__":487},"blog\u002Fblog\u002Fexchange-body-with-cat\u002Findex.md","一觉醒来，我和猫咪交换了灵魂？",{"type":80,"value":302,"toc":471},[303,306,309,316,319,322,326,329,332,335,338,341,344,347,351,354,357,360,363,367,370,373,379,382,385,388,392,395,398,401,404,407,410,413,416,419,422,425,428,431,435,438,441,444,447,450,453,456,459,462,465,468],[83,304,305],{},"像往常一样，醒来的第一时间，我伸手去拿手机。",[83,307,308],{},"等等，我怎么睡在沙发上？ 我伸出的手怎么是一只毛茸茸的爪子？。",[83,310,311],{},[312,313],"img",{"alt":314,"src":315},"cat","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Fexchange-body-with-cat\u002Fcat.png",[83,317,318],{},"不对劲。我好像……变成了我养的那只臭猫？",[83,320,321],{},"使得我幼小的心灵受到极大的冲击。如果我没猜错，我应该和我的猫灵魂互换了。",[164,323,325],{"id":324},"_1","1",[83,327,328],{},"我还在研究这副猫咪的身体，真正的“我”从卧室走了出来。 他婴儿般四肢着地的走路方式，印证了我的猜想：猫的灵魂在我的身体里面。",[83,330,331],{},"猫盯着我，从我两只爪子趴在墙上的姿势，它好像也明白了。",[83,333,334],{},"喵？“咋回事？”它一脸疑惑。",[83,336,337],{},"我大吃一惊，我怎么能听懂猫叫？但转念一想，哦现在我是猫啊，那没事了。",[83,339,340],{},"喵喵喵，我生气地回答它：“我怎么知道为什么，还想问你呢。”",[83,342,343],{},"喵喵， “一觉醒来就这样了”。",[83,345,346],{},"“里在干什膜？” 舍友阿伟闻声走过来，好奇地看着这魔幻的画面。 在阿伟眼中，我可能神经错乱或行为艺术，才会对着一只猫喵喵叫吧。",[164,348,350],{"id":349},"_2","2",[83,352,353],{},"如果说人眼是流畅画质， 那猫眼中的世界大概是4K。 因为我看到，我左边第532条毛上沾了一点灰尘。",[83,355,356],{},"平时的我根本看不到，即使看到也不会在意。但作为猫猫的我是越看越生气， 甚至有一股把它舔干净的欲望。",[83,358,359],{},"太恶心了， 再睡一觉吧。我心想，或许睡醒就换回去了。",[83,361,362],{},"可是下一秒我就发现，压根睡不着！ 猫的耳朵太好用了，吵死了，到处都是声音。 隔壁小红打呼噜的声音是那样清晰，彻底打碎了她在我心中的美好形象。",[164,364,366],{"id":365},"_3","3",[83,368,369],{},"肚子有点涨，我想大概是要拉屎了。可是我不想走进猫砂盘，里面好臭。",[83,371,372],{},"算了，去厕所拉好了。 我走进厕所，屁股撅起来对着马桶。",[83,374,375],{},[312,376],{"alt":377,"src":378},"cat2","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Fexchange-body-with-cat\u002Fcat2.png",[83,380,381],{},"这时，阿伟走了进来。看到我标准的蹲坑姿势，阿伟直呼内行，甚至还掏出手机咔咔拍照。这种毫无底线的狗仔队行为真是让猫火大。我感到羞耻，反胃，且感到尊严被人侵犯。",[83,383,384],{},"谁会喜欢大便的时候被人录像呢？我喵喵大叫表示抗议。但阿伟像个变态，我越叫他越兴奋，丝毫没有停下的意思。",[83,386,387],{},"无所谓，我现在是猫形态，丢的是猫脸。我只能自我安慰。",[164,389,391],{"id":390},"_4","4",[83,393,394],{},"太无聊了，得找点乐子。",[83,396,397],{},"我看着地上那些猫玩具，突然觉得以前的自己就是个脑残。",[83,399,400],{},"这些猫玩具也太幼稚了吧，我买这么多垃圾干什么。",[83,402,403],{},"我盯着桌上的书架。 这该死的书架竟充满诱惑，就像小时候心心念念的儿童乐园。",[83,405,406],{},"“跳上去，可好玩了”奇怪的声音在我脑海响起。",[83,408,409],{},"喵，“想跳就跳吧，不要压抑自己。” 猫看着我，似笑非笑，带着一种戏谑的眼神，我承认有被冒犯到。",[83,411,412],{},"我试图摆脱那股登高望远的冲动。 但此时那个普通得不值一提的书架，却像亚当夏娃眼中的苹果，像亚索眼中的兵线。 “忍不住了！” 我大喵一声，纵身跃上桌面，跳上书架，再蹦到地上。",[83,414,415],{},"好轻、好高、好爽。 我一边极限跑酷，一边放荡喵喵大笑，如同在兵线上e来e去的亚索。",[83,417,418],{},"阿伟看傻了，平时我是不允许猫跑到书架上去的。但今天的“我”丝毫没有阻止的意思，甚至还有点跃跃欲试。",[83,420,421],{},"我活成了自己最讨厌的猫样子。可是，那样酣畅淋漓的快感，站在书架顶上，那股会当凌绝顶的豪情。世上恐怕再也没有比这更富有趣味的游戏了。",[83,423,424],{},"我跳到书架的最高处，俯瞰着整个客厅。这都是朕的江山啊！诗意大发，我正想吟一首“东临碣石以观沧海”。",[83,426,427],{},"猫突然抓起我，给我屁股来了一巴掌。“怎么样？还跳不跳？”它得意洋洋地笑。 “好好想想你平时怎么欺负我，现在你也尝尝挨揍的滋味。”",[83,429,430],{},"臭猫素质真差，我气得咬牙切齿。算了，不跟这傻猫一般计较。毕竟现在战力互换，我打不过这庞然大物。",[164,432,434],{"id":433},"_5","5",[83,436,437],{},"又跳了一会，我有些饿了。可是猫粮又硬又干，好难吃。阿伟桌上的炸鸡真香啊，好想来一口。",[83,439,440],{},"“嘭”我头上挨了一记重锤。",[83,442,443],{},"又来了是吧？阿伟提起我的耳朵训斥道。",[83,445,446],{},"天地良心，我知道猫不能吃这些，凑过来闻一下都不给吗。我终于明白，平时我对猫咪是有多苛刻。",[83,448,449],{},"我闷闷不乐地躺在客厅，百无聊赖，只能胡思乱想，也不想吃猫粮。饿死得了，猫生有啥乐趣啊。",[83,451,452],{},"这臭猫也占着我的身体趴在地上，太丢脸了。",[83,454,455],{},"突然，一阵剧痛传来。“能不能好好看路！”我抱着被踩的尾巴，生气地叫骂。",[83,457,458],{},"一阵天旋地转。啊，原来只是梦啊。 我伸出右手，太棒了，还是那双熟悉的布满老茧的大手。",[83,460,461],{},"我打开房门，猫咪正躺在地上睡懒觉。 我冲向它，抱着它狠亲几大口，然后疯狂撸它。猫咪吓一跳，它以为我发病了，拼命挣扎。",[83,463,464],{},"“猫咪你要喝可乐吗？想喝奶茶吗？我这就给你下单”",[83,466,467],{},"“猫咪你想不想上书架玩，然后钻到屏幕后面去？可好玩了快上来吧。”",[83,469,470],{},"猫咪和阿伟同时用疑惑的眼神看着我，仿佛在看一个傻*。",{"title":51,"searchDepth":128,"depth":128,"links":472},[473,474,475,476,477],{"id":324,"depth":128,"text":325},{"id":349,"depth":128,"text":350},{"id":365,"depth":128,"text":366},{"id":390,"depth":128,"text":391},{"id":433,"depth":128,"text":434},"我怎么睡在沙发上？ 我伸出的手怎么是一只毛茸茸的爪子？。",{"src":315,"color":135},{},"\u002Fblog\u002Fexchange-body-with-cat","2020-05-23",{"title":300,"description":478},"blog\u002Fexchange-body-with-cat\u002Findex",[486],"奇思妙想","PI-ZoO_RQZQ4mQSCB4BYAfX4TCl5VLc3x4cPE4VaagI",{"id":489,"title":490,"body":491,"description":683,"draft":27,"extension":131,"featured":27,"heroImage":684,"language":136,"meta":686,"navigation":132,"path":687,"publishDate":688,"seo":689,"stem":690,"tags":691,"updatedDate":144,"__hash__":692},"blog\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Findex.md","一名失业的\"后浪\"的一天",{"type":80,"value":492,"toc":681},[493,496,499,505,508,514,517,520,523,526,528,531,537,540,543,546,549,555,558,561,564,567,570,576,592,598,604,607,610,613,618,621,627,631,634,637,640,654,657,660,662],[83,494,495],{},"他已经好几天没走出房门了。",[83,497,498],{},"前不久他刚离职，公司在四月该发工资的日子里却发了个寂寞，让他彻底失去了等待的欲望。",[83,500,501],{},[312,502],{"alt":503,"src":504},"工资截图","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl1.png",[83,506,507],{},"事实上是连40%都没发。",[83,509,510],{},[312,511],{"alt":512,"src":513},"工资详情","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl2.png",[83,515,516],{},"\"眼里是不是只有钱?\" 高管的一番发言更是叫他大倒胃口。若是衣食住行都不用发愁，那薪资倒也显得无关紧要。",[83,518,519],{},"但毕竟现在已经是五月了，去年十二月份的工资还遥遥无期。公司的人都走完了，甚至不知道该找谁问欠薪的事。",[83,521,522],{},"深圳这个五光十色的大都市充满着便利，你可以在这里找到任何娱乐的行当，只是房租水电，衣食住行，一举一动都要花钱，它的前卫和先进大多属于金钱。",[83,524,525],{},"这座城在吞噬很多人的青春，但更多的人是苦于无法归去。",[255,527],{},[83,529,530],{},"妈妈又在问什么时候回去家乡工作，还推送了一条招聘信息。",[83,532,533],{},[312,534],{"alt":535,"src":536},"招聘信息","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl3.png",[83,538,539],{},"刚毕业的时候意气风发，转眼两年过去了，如今连自己都无法欺骗 —— 确实只是一个没什么能耐的普通人而已。",[83,541,542],{},"二十块买的弹力带还挂在门上，但是他没什么心情去运动，因为有些饿了。",[83,544,545],{},"打开外卖软件，琳琅满目的美食不禁让人垂涎三尺。看了看价格，他心想\"还是自己煮点东西吃吧。\"",[83,547,548],{},"起身走到客厅打开了冰箱，里面并没有太多值得烹饪的物件。",[83,550,551],{},[312,552],{"alt":553,"src":554},"冰箱内容","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl4.png",[83,556,557],{},"前几天超市打折，七块钱能买到十六个鸡蛋，五块钱六个土豆，这是近期为数不多的令人振奋的消息之一。",[83,559,560],{},"不过这种挂面真的非常难吃，还不如方便面。但也正因为令人毫无食欲，五块钱一大扎的挂面反而能吃很多顿。",[83,562,563],{},"招商银行APP又在推送理财信息了。",[83,565,566],{},"他倒了杯水，一如既往地打开了电脑。从大学到现在，这部老伙伴已经陪伴了他六年。",[83,568,569],{},"\"上B站看一下有什么新的东西吧\"",[83,571,572],{},[312,573],{"alt":574,"src":575},"B站首页","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl5.png",[83,577,578],{},[116,579,580,585,588],{},[581,582,584],"span",{"style":583},"color:#ff0000","后浪？新一代？",[116,586,587],{},"他被这样的标题所吸引：",[581,589,591],{"style":590},"background-color:#ffffff; color:#ff0000","这说的是我这一代的生活吗?",[83,593,594],{},[312,595],{"alt":596,"src":597},"后浪视频","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl7.png",[83,599,600],{},[601,602,603],"em",{},"▲ bilibili弹幕视频网五四青年节宣传片《后浪》",[83,605,606],{},"视频已到尾声，屏幕上一整片的热血弹幕却没能引发他的共鸣，因为视频里的东西对他来说太遥远了。",[83,608,609],{},"跳伞、潜水、跑车…这些东西他只在电影和朋友圈里见过 —— 偶尔也会在街上被跑车突然的轰鸣声吓一跳。",[83,611,612],{},"\"献给新一代的演讲\"这几个字看起来格外刺眼，似乎一觉醒来就被剔除了青年的身份。",[83,614,615],{},[116,616,617],{},"后浪？达官贵人！",[83,619,620],{},"他把视频关掉了，下面的评论也不想看，这种正能量的视频是绝不会出现负面评价的，就算有，很快也会消失。",[83,622,623],{},[312,624],{"alt":625,"src":626},"后浪视频2","\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl6.png",[83,628,629],{},[601,630,603],{},[83,632,633],{},"真的在同一条奔涌的河流吗？他暗自思忖，为什么视频那些光鲜靓丽的生活感觉那么遥远呢？",[83,635,636],{},"小布尔乔亚……阶级……先富带动……一些零碎的词汇在脑海涌动，他晃了晃脑袋，试图摆脱这些无来由的想法。",[83,638,639],{},"他突然想起了自己看过的一个笑话：",[111,641,642,645,648,651],{},[83,643,644],{},"一个外邦使者来到罗马皇帝面前。",[83,646,647],{},"皇帝说:\"在我们罗马，每个人都可以追求自己的精彩，你可以自由选择你的人生，你可以写诗，学习投矛，拉弓射箭，还可以坐着两匹马的战车杀光高卢人。\"",[83,649,650],{},"使者:\"那些为您建造宫殿的人呢，他们背着大理石，看上去很累，那也是他们喜欢的工作吗？\"",[83,652,653],{},"皇帝：\"他们不是人。\"",[83,655,656],{},"天色渐渐暗了下来，他却并不想打开房间的灯，黑暗给予他一种莫名的安全感，他转头看向窗外，对面的楼顶是一片废墟，远方的高楼才是这个城市的真实面孔。",[83,658,659],{},"今天将要过去了。",[255,661],{},[111,663,664,672],{},[83,665,666,264,668],{},[116,667,263],{},[266,669,271],{"href":670,"rel":671},"https:\u002F\u002Fmp.weixin.qq.com\u002Fs\u002FibqXfCzM1FCBMguymCVO-Q",[270],[83,673,674,264,676],{},[116,675,276],{},[266,677,680],{"href":678,"rel":679},"https:\u002F\u002Funsplash.com\u002F@britishlibrary",[270],"Unsplash@British Library",{"title":51,"searchDepth":128,"depth":128,"links":682},[],"这座城市在吞噬很多人的青春，但更多的人是苦于无法归去。",{"src":685,"color":135},"\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Floser\u002Fl.jpg",{},"\u002Fblog\u002Floser","2020-05-13",{"title":490,"description":683},"blog\u002Floser\u002Findex",[143],"B8XZV9nIVVS2Gb-Hy4SryADOpeDTWpzqSPv42DQlbsE",{"id":694,"title":695,"body":696,"description":700,"draft":27,"extension":131,"featured":27,"heroImage":880,"language":136,"meta":882,"navigation":132,"path":883,"publishDate":884,"seo":885,"stem":886,"tags":887,"updatedDate":144,"__hash__":888},"blog\u002Fblog\u002Fweekend-with-friend\u002Findex.md","与医学生共度的某个周末",{"type":80,"value":697,"toc":878},[698,701,704,707,712,715,720,725,728,733,736,741,744,749,754,759,764,773,776,779,782,785,790,793,796,801,806,809,814,819,822,836,839,844,847,852,857,860,863,866,869,872,875],[83,699,700],{},"某个周末，我约许久不见的阿C出来玩，她说现在是打折季，打算去万国奥特莱斯买双鞋子。",[83,702,703],{},"阿C是我的高中同学，大二休学了一年，降级成了学妹。她是我唯一读医的同学，我常常以\"陈院长\"来称呼她——尽管她并不喜欢这个美称。",[83,705,706],{},"我在地铁站外面等她，阿C是个守时的人，一根烟还没抽完，她就出现在了地铁口。她穿了一件带兔耳朵帽子的卫衣，娇小的身形看起来像个初中生。我揪着她帽子上的耳朵把玩了半天，直到阿C快要生气才罢休。",[111,708,709],{},[83,710,711],{},"\"陈院长，实习还可以吧?\"",[83,713,714],{},"走路的时候，我一边试图揪她的兔耳朵一边打趣。",[111,716,717],{},[83,718,719],{},"\"还可以吧，每天就值班，然后跟手术，学东西\"",[111,721,722],{},[83,723,724],{},"\"实习有钱吗\"",[83,726,727],{},"我好奇地问。",[111,729,730],{},[83,731,732],{},"\"有个屁的钱\"",[83,734,735],{},"阿C气愤道，随后又苦中作乐：",[111,737,738],{},[83,739,740],{},"\"不过师兄每天会给我饭卡去饭堂吃饭\"",[83,742,743],{},"我安慰阿C：",[111,745,746],{},[83,747,748],{},"\"毕业就好啦，毕业就能当大医生了\"",[111,750,751],{},[83,752,753],{},"\"你想多了，我都没想过毕业能当医生\"",[111,755,756],{},[83,757,758],{},"\"医药大学毕业不能当医生，那谁能当啊?\"",[83,760,761],{},[116,762,763],{},"我有些诧异。",[111,765,766],{},[83,767,768,769,772],{},"\"本科出来基本没人要的，如果真想当大医生，",[116,770,771],{},"硕士三年，博士三年","，同学孩子都打酱油了我还没毕业\"",[83,774,775],{},"阿C笑嘻嘻地说道。",[83,777,778],{},"作为一名老直男，我试图挤出一些适当的话语，搜肠刮肚却憋不出什么有用的词汇，只得作罢。",[83,780,781],{},"跟大多数女生逛街一样，阿C穿梭于各大品牌店，试了一轮又一轮。虽然是打折，但好看的太贵，便宜的太丑，我们腿都走软了却啥也没买着。",[83,783,784],{},"鞋店的空气总弥漫着若隐若现的奇怪味道，我们打算去麦当劳休息一会儿，顺便吃点东西。",[111,786,787],{},[83,788,789],{},"\"我打算考研\"",[83,791,792],{},"阿C吸了一大口可乐，含糊不清地说道。",[83,794,795],{},"我没说话，因为阿C还有一些东西要说，我太了解她了。",[111,797,798],{},[83,799,800],{},"\"前段时间我们接收了一位晚期的病人，但是最后没救回来。\"",[111,802,803],{},[83,804,805],{},"\"尽力而为。\"",[83,807,808],{},"我也喝了一口可乐。",[111,810,811],{},[83,812,813],{},"\"医院就像修车厂，一辆车坏了我们会尽可能地去修补，但没办法把一辆报废的车复原，让他恢复原本的动力。\"",[111,815,816],{},[83,817,818],{},"\"可能只有上帝能救回来吧。\"",[83,820,821],{},"我感慨道。",[111,823,824,827,830,833],{},[83,825,826],{},"\"上帝也管不过来，只有一个上帝，但是有六十多亿人。",[83,828,829],{},"我看见他的心电图从起起伏伏到一条直线，滴地一声。",[83,831,832],{},"我握着他的手。但是我一点也不害怕，心里只有难过。",[83,834,835],{},"他最后一次签名确认是我负责的，那是我第一次和他说话。\"",[83,837,838],{},"她的眼神有些黯淡，低头看着桌上的薯条，眼角闪过一丝落寞的神色。",[111,840,841],{},[83,842,843],{},"\"也是最后一次。\"",[83,845,846],{},"话题突然变得有些沉重，我不知该如何接下去。",[111,848,849],{},[83,850,851],{},"\"阿姨没有为难我们。伯伯生前阿姨一直说：你怎么还不快去呀?\"",[111,853,854],{},[83,855,856],{},"\"但真的走了的时候，阿姨却抱着他一直哭，我以后一个人怎么过呢?\"",[83,858,859],{},"她尽可能模仿阿姨的表现，试图在这过于沉重的话题中营造一丝欢快的气氛。",[83,861,862],{},"但我们仍静默良久。",[83,864,865],{},"即使没有谈及，但我能理解：或许对这种病入膏肓的患者来说，生存就像一种折磨，死亡或许也是一种解脱。",[83,867,868],{},"阿C只是千千万万医学生的其中一位，从高中开始我便与她相识。",[83,870,871],{},"\"劝人学医天打雷劈\"也是阿C的口头禅之一。",[83,873,874],{},"她和我，和大多数人一样，是一个平凡而普通的人，没有学医救国之类的伟大理想——或许曾经有，但那股少年豪情也早已随着时光荏苒而逐渐淡化了。",[83,876,877],{},"但也许连她自己都没有意识到：当她以一个医生的身份倾诉时，身上总浮现一种难以言表的激昂 —— 似乎有一股莫名的力量在支撑着她，让她拥有与死神抗争的勇气。",{"title":51,"searchDepth":128,"depth":128,"links":879},[],{"src":881,"color":135},"\u002Fimages\u002Fblog\u002Fweekend-with-friend\u002F2.jpg",{},"\u002Fblog\u002Fweekend-with-friend","2020-05-12",{"title":695,"description":700},"blog\u002Fweekend-with-friend\u002Findex",[143],"805BmIItl0s51aQn8Mh9_hFFKykkIaspfD1SqLqEOHo",1793725130961]